Cold Water

The sea sighed today
Yesterday it was in a rage
Throwing itself around
Tossing and churning
It wanted to let go
But it was so strong
Helplessly crashing

Me

Actions of deceit and cruelty
Embarrassment beyond compare
Morals and values, worthless
Tolerance to this kind of behavior is unheard of
Forgiveness does not seem to be an option
Forget the illusion it must have been
The illusion of kindness, that masked this treachery
There could be no humanity hidden within
Not now
It's gone
All that is left are words that describe a  person of unimaginable performance
who "left nice back in December"

Letters I never sent

You were that person
I didn't know it
and all I gave you was a goodbye
Wish I had seen it
Wish I had been ready for it
Wish I could have calculated how to start again
and I understand why you backed away
Why you went so far away

I think back to that day often
My hand on the door knob
looking for my escape
Now, wishing I could take it back

I remember how the room smelled
How the room looked
Where everything was placed
The memories in that room

You could have been it
I would never have questioned it
and you stood there silently wishing I would see it

You made me feel like I could do no wrong,
but I did........

I wasn't ready
and I hate him for that

I think about October all the time

Framed

I won your heart
and finally you let me in
I tasted your kiss
and you wrapped your arms around me

I looked at you
and you looked back
I held your hand
and you didn't let go

I smiled at you
and you smiled back
I'd stare at you
and you'd always catch me

I'd lose hope
and you'd reassure me
I'd sometimes fall
but you were right behind me

Today

I forgot

How it felt sleeping next to you

Back again!

Well it has been quite a while since I actually posted a piece of writing. It is not for the fact that I have stopped writing, it is only my lack of transferring it from my note book to here. But I am going to be much more diligent in setting aside the time to really sit, write and share.




I need to write it down
get it out there
express it
But I want it to stop
Please stop....

You had shut off your emotions
You didn't feel
You say I opened you to feeling again
I'm sorry
Why sorry? ............because it did the same to me

Gushing words, describing words,
being written down on paper.....in ink
It's permanent when written down
The words now spoken out loud
and you know what happens when you say things out loud

It stops
It ruins it
Taints it
Be careful of what you write down

I feel it falling off like clothing